to retire it or not?

This has been my only bible.  It has been with me through all of my spiritual growth.  It has traveled far and wide,  but alas it it’s spine is breaking and pages are coming out.  It makes me sad.  The front pages have my childlike handwriting confessing sins that weighed heavy on my heart, at 15.  I have so many notes in there from countless bible studies of my college years.  This picture above was from it’s more recent travels to New Zealand and Fiji.  Should I continue it’s journey for selfish reasons of reminising? Or just let it retire? How do I just put this on the bookcase, it’s lived beside my bed (sometimes in my bed beside me), on my coffee table, in my car…

Anyway, that might seem silly to some of you, but it’s a tiny bit emotional – but I’ll survive…lol.  

PhotoWalk: Warehouse District

I’ve been networking! Yep. being social. me. and others.    O.o    (crazy eyes)

I went on a photowalk of the 4th street area of Austin.   I’ve done similar things all by my lonesome, but I went with actual people!  I’m not sure if “photowalk” is an official term or not (haven’t searched it), but basically it’s walking around a specific area to take photos of interesting items.  The interesting items are left up to your own interpretation…and mine of the warehouse district are found on my flickr site.  You can seem my flickr stream to the left of this text.

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Anyway, I just wanted to say that I had a great time, met some wonderful ladies and most of all networked with people that have the same interest and business, as I do.    Leave me a comment on flickr, if you find one that you like! (I love comments…kind of a comment-aholic)

I would rather work…

I always had this really bad complex/thoughts/judgment about people that said that they “just can’t get a job.”  I always thought that was a load of crap and that they could, if they TRIED hard enough.  I mean I would secretly really look down on them.  Now that the table has turned on me,  I am faced with my own judgment against myself (aka – beating the hell out of myself).  I have been trying.  I have been trying VERY hard, however I continue to think of myself as this no job loser.  I have been growing my photography business, which I really truly love…and wish I could just do that for money for a LONG while…but alas I’m not growing that fast.  I never had the thought that the photography business would be my main career for a long time, but perhaps God is trying to get me to see it that way?  Any thoughts on how to market myself more? I’ll take any suggestions.

Mainly, what I’m saying is that it’s really hard to not want to just accept failure and curl up in bed and watch tv movies for the rest of my day.  I guess you can say that I’m quite depressed about the job search/hunt.

Newcomers Class

Today was my first day of the newcomers’ class at St. David’s!  It was only 40 mins long, but very informative.  We quickly covered broad strokes of the history and some of the mainstays of St. David’s mission. I will be attending newcomers each Sunday this month and then there is a longer course that is even more informative scheduled for after this one.

I’m excited, but still a little intimidated by “high(er) church” then I’m used to… All I know is that I’m looking forward to attending a warm and welcoming church and the journey that God is sending me on.

The outcast…

I know…I know…outcast??!  Where’s that coming from?

I have been declared as bad as a heathen man and a publican (Matthew 18:17), because of my life choices.  Rumors spread like wildfire…and I am assuming you’ve all heard that I’m in love – and that my love is wrong.  I just do not see it that way.

To my fellow church member readers, I would love to still keep in touch with you all.   I will be seeking out a new church home – sadly.   I know that might seem like false sentiment, but I am truly very sad and upset that I will not be a part of the Crossroads church family.  I loved it there…more than any other place I’ve ever attended.  The people were sweet and oh so caring. *tears* I will miss the church members the most.

However, my Faith will never waver and will continue to grow stronger with each day.

I really hope that I’m allowed and invited to continue to read your blogs and comment and I welcome you all to mine – because honestly I love you guys.

And I love my LORD and he loves me.

Project 365: (un-paused) Day 11

I’m sorry, dear readers. I didn’t mean to drop the ball on the photo project, but I’ve thought some of my new photography session would make up for it? I do have a photography blog, but not everyone here knows about it. Also, I’ll do another post over quakecon…later today.

Here’s some pictures to make up for it…

no reliable internet = pause on Project 365

I’m at my computer conference and as much as I REALLY REALLY wanted to blog everyday about how much fun I am having…the internet provided here in the BYOC (Bring Your Own Computer) is REALLY REALLY SUCKING! So. ya. I’ll be back online and bring you an AWESOME long post on Monday.

Project 365: Day 10

I wonder…Did you know that I have arthritis? It has plagued me since high school.  I ache…almost constantly.  This past week or so, it’s been impressively bad.  If I sit for too long – I’m stiff, after waking up – I’m stiff and through out the day my entire body feels like it’s being –hmm…pressed on? or sharp but dull pains? I do know that it is HARD to explain.  I wish that it was a visible pain.  Most of my life I’ve suffered from invisible pain.  Invisible pain is worse, only because some people have no idea that you hurt that badly.

This is a picture from one of today’s many hand soaking – now if only I had a hot tub….then I’d be golden.

It’s not easy taking pictures with water in a white sink…learning…

Project 365: Day 9 (posted on the actual day)

I got a NEW video card! I can finally play Left 4 Dead without wanting to scream at my computer with all the glitching. You have no idea how happy I am to get a little upgrade…it makes processing pictures better and play games much more visually better.

By the way, all of these project pictures are straight from camera, thus far. (no editing)

Project 365: Day 7 & 8

I failed to get any really interesting pictures, but I did what I told myself I would do…I brought my camera along with me places – didn’t actually use it anywhere interesting? I think by the end of this project I will be more on top of my game…hopefully? Do you have faith in my ability to actually follow through? I’m a bit skeptical, myself.

Day 7: — This is a pet peeve of mine! I can’t stand driving with papers on the dash board – I get distracted and annoyed by the reflection.  (I wasn’t driving and shooting by the way) hehe.

Day 8: — Again, not super interesting – but I got this bag from my sister for my birthday.  She loves that brand name – Hollister. (have I ever told you how much I love my sister? – she’s amazing)