I would rather work…

I always had this really bad complex/thoughts/judgment about people that said that they “just can’t get a job.”  I always thought that was a load of crap and that they could, if they TRIED hard enough.  I mean I would secretly really look down on them.  Now that the table has turned on me,  I am faced with my own judgment against myself (aka – beating the hell out of myself).  I have been trying.  I have been trying VERY hard, however I continue to think of myself as this no job loser.  I have been growing my photography business, which I really truly love…and wish I could just do that for money for a LONG while…but alas I’m not growing that fast.  I never had the thought that the photography business would be my main career for a long time, but perhaps God is trying to get me to see it that way?  Any thoughts on how to market myself more? I’ll take any suggestions.

Mainly, what I’m saying is that it’s really hard to not want to just accept failure and curl up in bed and watch tv movies for the rest of my day.  I guess you can say that I’m quite depressed about the job search/hunt.